A teat is offered me, and I smoke it. Welcome the arrival of Big John into my life! He makes it possible. Anyhoo, Channukah had special meaning this year, despite the fact that I was unable to light a menorah, give sacraments, do all that celebratin' of life with the fam and presents and close friends and treats, I reflected on it inwardly more than I ever have, realized why it was a winter holiday, and how it symbolizes the light provided me in a very dark world. I've taken the link to this site off my facebook profile simply because my mother is now one of my facebook friends and is otherwise unaware of the fact that I have this blog and that I write awful shit about her on it. I prefer not to have that link ready at her hands. I need my outlet, but I don't want to cause more grief in this intense, dysfunctional relationship even though it has its ups.

"I like having sans coulottes with you."

This is true. Ah! Refreshing sex. On to other truths, 2006 was pretty much the crappiest year of my life, one, it seems, that will leave me owning another vehicle. For you see, U-Haul sucks unless you prefer spending $2000 on rental units rather than, say, travel or higher education. Effervescence, love, destruction...all these can be mine after all. Funny how the Chihuauan Desert provides, and as long as my backpack is stocked with my Epipen and my organization's supply of rattlesnake antivenom, 'sall good to go.